So despite having hols now, I'm still struggling.. Stress.. It feels like I'm in the deep sea, and trying to swim to ashore, but kept remaining at the same place. And keep wanting to swim up to take a breath before moving on, but I can't. Keep on swallowing and choking on water. It's so near to the surface of the water but can't seem to go up further. Being tight, being stretched, felt hard to breathe. Ministry, relationship, emotions.. (fortunately the work part had finish.. or else seriously, I might not be able to take it.) The anger, the work not done, the need to rush to finish work due to the large amt of workload with the little amt of time given. While I was doing work, wad was in my mind was, "Don't bother me!! Let me finish my work first!! I'll blow up soon if you don't allow me to!!!" I really feel like giving up on everything.

I know it's hard for both of us now. With me having emotional probs, work, r/s, stress.. with you, trying ur best for us, ur work, and everything. Really very appreciate you being so patience with me when everytime I blow up. You being the poor thing one. Put up with me and all. And somehow we worked out our differences. Really thank God for you. I agree with what you said. Maybe I've tithed, and you're this very special gift that God gave, for being faithful to Him.

This hol, though with lots of places to go (sounds fun, and I wanna go too), but somehow felt too tired to actually wanna go out of my house. The question now to ask is, how long can I take it? Just how long??

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